In and Outs 2

Ins

1. Studying

2. My new fluffy toy

3. Jeans

4. Longchamp bag

5. Korean winged liner

6. working out

7. Fishtail Braid

8. Coffee

9. New Hair colour

10. Listening to the radio

Outs

1. Sleeping

2. Eating

3. Lazing around

4. Ponytails

5. Mascaras

6. Sneakers

7. Movies

8. Not sleeping alone

9. Froyo

10. Fats

Love,

Bel

"Cos baby its cold outside"

It's getting pretty chilly without you lately.

Keeping myself warm and toasty till I see you baby.

Love,

Bel

What every girl wants from her guy.

Whenever she cries, you should kiss those tears away. At least she knows you care and she won't cry anymore.

Whenever she gets angry, you should hold her tight. And let her know that you're still here with her.

Whenever she leaves with sadness on her face, you should go after her. Give her a hug and let her know she's never alone and kiss her goodbye.

Whenever she calls, you should pick it up straight away. You never know how much she needs to talk to you.

Whenever she doesn't reply your text, you should jolly well figure out something is wrong and give her a call right away. Especially when she's the type who replies in an instant.

If she ever ask you, "Do you love me?". It means its all too late. Don't let that happen. Tell her you love her and not wait for her to say "I love you" before saying "I love you too".

Do what you have to do before its all too late. A girl will always grow up and become strong and tough sooner or later. Treasure her and hold her tight. You're all she has in her life, remember that.

Love,

Bel

Love...

I feel as though I'm not something of importance to you. I've been calling and texting you all day(not a ridiculous amount honestly). And I thought you're sleeping that's why you didn't reply. Only to find out you've been outside the way day.

I'm not angry with the fact that you are out. I'm just angry at the fact that for more than six hours of you being awake, you didn't bother to want to text me at all. You always pick up others calls almost immediately when you're awake. Why not mine? What if I was dying and called to say my last words? What if I'm lost somewhere and need help? Would you be there for me when I need you? Or do I have to gather all the strength I have left to go all the way over to look for you like I always do?

I do believe in the love you have for me. The love is there. But is the significance of my existence there?

Yesterday I got reprimanded for the way I was behaving. I'm not me when I'm with you. I am me and more than that because you are so special to me. You made me feel like an embarassment to you went you said that to me in public. It made me feel like I'm a fool cos I've been like this all along whenever we're out. I thought of the number of times I'm always like this, and though about the number of times you have already dislike it. I think I probably am an embarassment to you.

I hate myself. Not you. If you were to read this I bet you will definitely be thinking I hate you. But honestly, I don't at all. I hate myself. I hate myself for not being able to meet your expectations, hate myself for being so useless and stupid, hate myself for not being able to show you how much I love you in actions because of the way I keep making stupid mistakes. I hate myself for not loving you enough, because if I do, why am I so stupid? I am so sorry. Terribly sorry. I'm a burden to you. I'm so sorry.